With school starting back, I honestly don't know if we are coming or going. I'm sure I'm not the only one that feels that way. But, while I ramble about being so crazy/busy, the reminder of how blessed we are lingers in my mind as a reason why we are so crazy/busy.
This has also reminded me of where my priorities should be, too. With everything going on so fast, I still want to make sure that my kids see a good example in me. Honestly speaking, I haven't felt like I've been the best example by letting all of our "stuff" interfere with Bible time and that family time where we just sit and talk. Well, this usually consists of Cole asking every question he can think about while we try to answer them. Anyway, we've allowed the busy-ness of life to just come in and make things crazy. So, feeling the conviction in my heart, I have made it my personal mission to make sure that my kids and I discuss a Bible story lesson every day. Whether it's at meal time, bed time, or going down the road, the need for discussing God and His purpose is so necessary, especially to our little ones. When we do this, I allow them to take turns praying. We have been doing this for a while now and I can't express what this is meaning to me as their mother. There is truly nothing like it when you hear your little one humble themselves before our Heavenly Father.
I've realized a lot through this. Priorities are a serious thing in anyone's life and can have drastic effects, if they are not organized. This is where I feel I should stand: 1. God 2. Family (Husband & kids) 3. Extended family and close friends. After those 3, everything else can pretty much a take a number a wait! I realized that my wagon has definitely been over-loaded and that it's time to unload the trash. This sounds so harsh, but really it's the truth.
In the last month, I've accidentally realized that some family and friends that I've thought cares for me, really doesn't care all that much. Amazing how we realize who we really don't need "trashing" up our life? This can be making us feel depressed, unworthy, ugly, drag down our self-esteem...the list goes on! It can range from family to our closest of friends! It's funny to me now, mainly because so many individuals that I have "thought" were honest, good, realiable friends, really aren't. Hurt - definitely. But, that's ok. This has made me realize my priorites, as well as a few other important things. I continue to pray for these individuals, love them, and would do anything to help them. The other thing that I was reminded about as I pondered in my mind about this was that it's not all about them. Why am I even concerned about how they've hurt my feelings by their dishonesty or selfishness? They're merely human beings living in the same imperfect world that I'm living in. This goes along with helping me realize who should really come first in my life, as well as theirs - God. It's about Him and His kingdom. It's not about them and what they have going on. Petty issues and drama do not matter. They will come and go, but His kingdom will firmly stand. So, I pray that God continues to convict my heart to be the example He needs me to be for these precious children that He's given to me to raise in this worldly-world.
