The Light is Blinking

Almost another year... that is how long it has been since I last posted on here.  (Shame on me!) My reason for this is because I have been living inside of a whirl wind and trying to keep up!  Is that really a good excuse? Every time I have gotten on the computer, it has mostly been to prepare school assignments, pay bills, check emails, and try to keep up with my Facebook account, so that folks think that I am still among the living.  This Summer has truly been a challenging one for me and it is flying right past me.  I have been trying to keep my sweet kiddos happy, my wonderful husband taken care of, and trying to finish my final trimester of the program I am in at William Carey University.

Have I mentioned how wonderful husband?  I think that I have.  :)  He has really been there for me this Summer.  He has encouraged me, taken extra time with the kids, cooked (Yes!  Really!!!), and has done a lot of extra things that he normally does not have to do.  Cole and Kara have been really busy this Summer with their activities.  They are learning how to ride their ponies and have been in a horse show almost every weekend.  What joy they bring my heart, especially when I see how much they enjoy learning to ride!  Cole has been spending "dude time" with his daddy a lot. They have been riding horses together, going to the deer camp, playing yard football, 4-wheelin'...all of that fun stuff they like to get into!  Kara has been going with them some - when they let her.  ;-)  She has been practicing with her flag cheerleading squad and practicing gymnastics. Yes, we are busy!  But, I can not imagine it any other way.

For the past month, on top of keeping up with my school assignment in my 2 summer courses - my last 2 courses, by the way!  In addition to keeping up with what is going on in my courses, I have also been busy researching and trying to brush up my writing skills for my master comprehensive exams.  Talk about having your nerves worked on and feeling stressed to the max!  (Whew!) I started preparing at the first of the Spring, but I really started focusing on it during May. I am honestly not sure I fully prepared for it the way that I needed to.  On July 7th, bright and early, I took my comprehensive exam at William Carey University. My drive to the campus felt like it was the quickest drive ever.  I remember as I pulled up to the security guard at the entrance gate, I was thinking to myself, "What! I am here already!?"  I parked my truck, gathered my materials (pencils, student ID, money), and walked to the building where I was scheduled to take my exam. Several students were there and I found 2 of my classmates and joined them.  We briefly had a chance to say, "hello", and , and then Dr. Morris opened the door and said it was time.  After I checked in, I went to the restroom and thought I may vomit.  (Sorry!  I was a nervous gal!) I did not vomit after all, thank God!  I told myself, "Amy!  Get a grip! Pray! Focus! Calm your end down!"  I walked to the classroom that I was assigned to take my exam and patiently waited with the other students assigned in the classroom with me.  The proctor professor finally came in.  She was such a pleasant woman! She encouraged us and she prayed with us.  I felt immediate peace within myself.  Dr. Morris soon came in. He provided us with directions and prayed with us, as well.  After he left, the proctor professor began with specific instructions and started passing out envelopes that contained our questions to choose from. For my program, I was required to answer 1 questions and then I could choose 2 questions.  We had an hour per questions.  The exam was handwritten with pencil and needed to be around 500 words.  As I opened my envelope, I saw my question list and was both nervous and thankful.

Show time! I started my exam and felt shaky, but was praying that I was remembering all of the information and resources that I needed. After I answered my 3 questions, I looked up at the time and there was still 30 minutes left.  I thought,"Oh, no!  I finished early?  I hope my answers are not too short!" So, I quickly scanned over my answers for any errors, but I was so nervous, I do not know if it helped!  I decided to pray and turn my examination booklets in to the proctor professor. I left the campus with so many feelings and emotions.  Part of me was so thankful and the other part was a nervous wreck!  As of now, I still do not know if I have passed that exam or failed. I am trying to be open minded about it.  If I pass, it will be a relief and I will feel very thankful!  If I fail, I will just try again. I admit, I am not a good school paper writing type of gal.  I have always loved English and did really well, but when it comes to all of the do's and don'ts for writing research papers and article reviews, I guess I just write and accidentally forget all of those writing rules.  Being a college student has tremendously helped me in that area. Regardless of the outcome of my comprehensive exam results, at least I am almost done with my final 2 classes!  If I pass those 2 classes and pass the comps, I can graduate in August! What a  hopeful feeling!  I can almost see the light!  The light is blinking!

***I have no idea why part of this is highlighted white.  I have tried to correct it, but the correction will not save. Must be a buggy issue or something.


Going back to school and finishing what I started during my junior college years has allowed me to grow in so many ways.  As of now, I do not have a job. I am going to have faith that God has a plan for me, pass out my resume, and take it one day at a time.  If you are reading my post and know of a job for me, let me know.  :)  I am first and foremost a child of God, a wife, and a mama, so that job will be a priority, of course.  Thank-you for reading my post. God bless.